Musical Mondays: I Hate U, I Love U by Gnash ft. Olivia O’Brien


I found this music yesterday and I’m in love… isn’t it beautiful?!

Feeling used
But I’m
Still missing you
And I can’t
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can’t seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don’t want to but I can’t put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I’ll never be her

I miss you when I can’t sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can’t eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don’t remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I’m always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn’t like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn’t bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You’re still in love with me but your friends don’t know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don’t mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn’t and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn’t be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it’s good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don’t want to but I can’t put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I’ll never be her

All alone I watch you watch her
Like she’s the only girl you’ve ever seen
You don’t care you never did
You don’t give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don’t want to but I can’t put nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I’ll never be her

Adorkable (Cookie O’Gorman)


Adorkable (ah-dor-kuh-bul): Descriptive term meaning to be equal parts dorky and adorable. For reference, see Sally Spitz.

Seventeen-year-old Sally Spitz is done with dating. Or at least, she’s done with the horrible blind dates/hookups/sneak attacks her matchmaking bestie, Hooker, sets her up on. There’s only so much one geek girl and Gryffindor supporter can take.

Her solution: she needs a fake boyfriend. And fast.

Enter Becks, soccer phenom, all-around-hottie, and Sally’s best friend practically since birth. When Sally asks Becks to be her F.B.F. (fake boyfriend), Becks is only too happy to be used. He’d do anything for Sal — even if that means giving her PDA lessons in his bedroom, saying she’s “more than pretty,” and expertly kissing her at parties.

The problem: Sally’s been in love with Becks all her life — and he’s completely clueless.

This book features two best friends, one special edition Yoda snuggie, countless beneath-the-ear kisses and begs the question:

Who wants a real boyfriend when faking it is so much more fun?

See that title?! It describes this book perfectly! This book is ADORKABLE!!!!

So good! It has some of my favorite tropes in romance – BFFs turned lovers and a fake relationship. Plus it has the most amazing pop culture and geeky references of all time!

I really liked the writing on this one. It’s smart, funny and witty. And did I say smart and funny?!

I loved both main characters. Sally was amazing, she knew who she was, and she was more than ok with it, and that is awesome. I mean, this girl switched to speaking german when she was nervous or upset, how cool is that? She only ever lacked the ability to put Hooker and her mom in place – but that wasn’t entirely her fault – and to even think it was possible for Becks to LIKE her for who she was… oh :(. Becks was seriously great but so scared :(. I loved how he was such a great friend to Sally, never questioning her decisions, and supporting her wholeheartedly, even when it broke his heart to do so. The boy was so in love with her from the get go, I don’t know how no one saw it!


Their friendship was seriously #goals! They had been BFFs since they were 7, and that friendship was an amazing constant in both their lives. But the romance? Oh boy! THAT was AWESOME! Becks was such a romantic guy, and he was so focus to show her how they would be great as a couple… too bad she never believed him…

I was surprisingly OK with the little love triangle that exists at some point in the book. Ash is always honest and upfront, and there is never any doubt that Sally loves Becks, and that he’s always her choice.


While Hooker, Sally’s BFF, was hilarious and fun, I thought that she took things a little too far. If someone did to me what Hooker does to Sally on a daily basis, I would flip! I loved Sal’s mom though, even though she would get into Hooker’s schemes way too often, she honestly just wanted her kid to be happy, and she wanted her to be happy with Becks, so point for her.

I honestly has a blast reading this book, and I loved all the X-Men, Star Wars, Star Trek, Harry Potter, …, references. They were so well done and well used, and they served to show not only Sally’s personality, but her connection to her 2 best friends.


I loved these two. They were such a great couple, and sweet, and hot, and I loved their story so much! And major points for young Becks that was totally smitten by young Sal… now go read this book!